The people I look upto keep dying

So many people I’ve idolised and looked upto have passed away, from musicians, actors to scientific geniuses. 

Recently, Professor Stephen Hawking had passed away, a lot of people get jealous and think we his fans only admire him because he’s disabled that’s not the case, he was funny, kind-hearted, intelligent and inspirational. I literally thought Stephen would live longer than 76. He was so brave and amazing.

Last year we all lost one of the amazing singers of all time: Chester Bennington. Linkin Park was one of the many rock bands that influenced me at a very young age. I remembered at just 14 years old listening to Linkin Park’s songs on the music channel “Kerrang!”. Then last year I saw so many people posting about Chester Bennington hanging himself. I was so shocked because I honestly didn’t think Chester would ever give up like that especially when finally being with a woman that loved him to pieces and Chester inspired all of us through his lyrics not to give up.

Two years ago, former WWE star Joan Marie Laurer (also known as “Chyna” to fans) was a huge inspiration to women worldwide being one of the top female wrestlers to compete with male wrestlers had passed away. Laurer was a bodybuilder and was so strong she didn’t even noticed she had ovarian cancer. Her life unfortunately was difficult, Laurer and her family struggled with drug abuse and alcoholism. Before Laurer died, she travelled to Japan to teach English and converted to Mormonism. When people mention “Chyna the wrestler”, they immediately say “Oh yeah, the hermaphrodite who was in a sex tape and took steroids”, the truth is Laurer was nothing like that. Yes, she took drugs but mostly sedatives and narcotics but never steroids, she drunk heavily and had no idea that she was even being filmed when sleeping with fellow former WWE wrestler Sean Waltman (well known as “X Pac”). She was in love with Paul Levesque and became depressed after they split up because not only did she lose a man she loved, she also lost her career in WWE (then known as WWF). Laurer was more than just some female wrestler with a PlayBoy career, a secret sex tape who struggled with alcohol and drugs, she was the Ninth Wonder of the World being one of the strongest women in world history and inspired women all around the world. 

Before Laurer died, David Bowie the LGBTQ and fashion icon had passed away from liver cancer. Bowie was a huge influence on people who struggled with their sexuality and he was a true fashion icon. He even made an appearance in the first Zoolander movie during catwalk battle between Dereck Zoolander (played by Ben Stiller) & Hansel (played by Owen Wilson) being their referee and giving the model rules and instructions during their catwalk battle. A Somalian model Zara Mohammad Abdulmajid going by the stage name “Iman” was left devastated by Bowie’s death but is remaining strong leaving him a tribute “The struggle is real but so is God”.  The couple even had children together. 

And of course, I’ll never forget the day Whitney Houston passed away and the day her own daughter decided to end her life the same way.

Rock music changed my life but I’ll always be very alternative when it comes to music tastes. I’ve always been a huge fan of Whitney Houston, when I found out she passed away, I was shocked and in disbelief until a family member confirmed it was true. Although I knew Whitney Houston had a history of drug abuse but I never thought she would have died then exactly 1 day before my 28th birthday, I saw the news that Bobbi Kristina Brown had died the same way as her own mother, still to this very day, it haunts me knowing that they both died the same way.

So many people I’ve looked upto and admired and idolised have ended up either six feet under or ashes scattered far away. The truth is that Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II is the last straw, that will be the huge bullet in the gut. I will not cope if anything happens to our precious queen, Her Majesty has the biggest influence on me the most that I will just become catatonic. I cannot lose another important figure in my life.

Along with these amazing people, we also lost Robin Williams (actor, comedian), Mohammad Ali (champion boxer), Rik Mayall (Actor, comedian), Carrie Fisher (the original Star Wars Princess Leia) and Cilla Black (TV presenter, singer, actress and author. Best known for being the TV host of Blind Date).

The celebrities who we grew to love have sadly left us and who knows who else will leave.


How do you know someone is Autistic?

Autism affects people differently depending on age and mental capacity. 

Some parents can detect signs of Autism in their children at their early age but some don’t get a proper diagnosis until later on in life.

On the 22nd of March 2 years ago, the BBC began broadcasting a family drama series called “The A Word” which focuses on a 5 five year old boy named Joe Hughes who’s parents thought he was simply an ordinary young boy only with some odd behaviour but during his own birthday party, his parents Alison & Paul seem concerned as their son does not wish to participate at his own birthday party and ignores everyone. 

Throughout the series, all TV viewers watch the parents grow into denial and acceptance that their 5 year old son has Autistic Spectrum Disorder. 

How do we know if someone has Autism?

All children, teenagers, adults and elderly people don’t always show visible or obvious signs of Autism but you can always by the patterns in their behaviour. 

Here is a list of the most common symptoms in Autistic Spectrum Disorder: 

  • Sensitivity to loud noises
  • Repeating the same routines
  • No acceptance in change
  • Emotional distress 
  • Spontaneous mood swings or outbursts 
  • Collecting specific objects or showing a strong interest in a particular hobby
  • Social anxiety (refusing to socialise with other people) 
  • Poor communication skills 
  • Trouble understanding consequences of inappropriate actions 

These are the symptoms that many Autistic people show and the whole idea of my non-profit charity is to spread awareness of Autism around the UK as many Autistic people always get misdiagnosed. 

I was diagnosed with general Autistic Spectrum Disorder and ADHD as a young child because I always wasted to be around my parents and teachers at school thought I was death because I wouldn’t speak and ignored them so my parents had me take a hearing test and everything came back fine but I still showed signs of odd behaviour so then my parents seeked help and advice from social services and children’s mental health services and there it was, I had classic Autism and ADHD.

But unfortunately as I grew older, I became a quick learner and my behaviour changed so I had a reassessment at a social care clinic at age 16 and an IQ test. My IQ was 101 and I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome but as soon as I went to live in independent housing with adult social care when I was in my 20s, psychiatrists and psychologists kept diagnosing me with “Borderline Personality Disorder” and it really frustrated me because I knew for a fact I didn’t have it because Borderline Personality Disorder is a totally different condition. 

Asperger’s Syndrome is a more complicated version of Autism as it means you suffer from mental illness as well as Autism and I fell into a deep depression at 13 years old because I was getting bullying at school due to my sexuality and weight, I was raped by one of the school bullies, my parents got divorced and my cousin was brutally murdered by tough street gang members and at age 16 I began struggling with fit in and make friends at college and I began self-harming and attempting suicide so my elder sister noticed that I had Asperger’s Syndrome and that’s why my mother had me reassessed by a social worker. 

My former psychologist from North London was very patronising and continued to diagnose me with Borderline Personality Disorder and then I was kicked out of my sheltered housing accommodation and placed in supported housing accommodation filled with severely mentally unstable people who carried around drugs and weapons and nearly every day I was accused of things I had not done wrong and got arrested. I was beaten black and blue by the so-called “support workers”, the boss of the company stole nearly £4k from my benefits and my mother finally informed my sadistic, egotistical, narcissistic CPN that I indeed have Autism and that she owns a statement from social services confirming it.

This is the problems with Autistic Spectrum Disorder, a lot of people make judgements, they assume that all Autistic are mute, twitch a lot, bite their hands and hit themselves but that’s not the case. NOT all Autistic people clap their hands, twitch or figit, bite themselves or other people, refuse to talk and punch their heads or slap their faces. This is merely a stigma and a stereotype. Autism effects all people differently based on their age and mental capacity. I am semi-independent meaning I can speak for myself and perform certain tasks but I am dyslexic, I cannot tell the time but an analogue clock only a 12hr digital clock, I can only cook easy or ready-made meals, I struggle to count money and have been taken advantage of, I struggle to keep my flat tidy and I find it hard to communicate with people and make new friends so I require supported housing by adult social care services. My mother has been taking care of me since my early 20s so I’ve never been able to do things by myself. 

I have a mental age of a teenager so I like collecting toy cars, actions figures, I enjoy playing with lego and reading comic books despite my legal age is 30 years old and I spend most of my time inside my flat using the internet or playing video games. Most of my good supportive friends are people whom I’ve met online because I struggle to make a conversation in person, if I do talk to people in person it’s usually paramedics, police officers, shopping assistants or elderly people because I feel more comfortable and relaxed around these types of people because I know they won’t judge me based on my looks or appearance and they’re easy to talk to. I find it hard to talk to my friends from school or college over the phone as I struggle make icebreakers or find topics to discuss and eventually end up with a mental block but if I talk to a family member it is easier because my family members know very well. 

So this is what Autism is like for me. It can be very frustrating at times but a lot of people think I’m cool and wouldn’t want me to change who I am and I totally agree with them.

(A photo of Steven Neary a man with Autism from North-west London who was mistreated by adult social care services) 

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How people can tell what age are you?

Have you ever wondered “How do the police tell if someone is 18 or 30 years old when they’re just a skeleton?” – Well here’s how I am going to tell you. 

[ Forensic officer at a crime scene ] 


Teeth are a unique way to tell if someone is over 18. People begin developing their wisdom teeth when they’re 18 years old. This literally could be the new way for baby faced people to ID themselves in pubs and nightclubs without a passport or a driver’s license in the future. And not only can a person’s age can be verified by their wisdom teeth but by their actual dental records as well just like when a body is so decomposed that forensics can’t verify the person, usually they analyse their teeth by molding a shape of them by mixing cement and sending the model to a dental practice and the dentist can identify the teeth by their unique shape and the work they’ve had done. Also they can do this by just photographs as well as molding sculptures. 

[ Woman being examined by dentist ]


The average height for man is usually between 5 foot 10 inches to 6 feet and the normal average age for a person to stop growing is at 16 years old. The average height for a woman is usually 5 foot 4 to 5 foot 7 inches. Again, people stop growing at 16 and usually a person’s can tell that the person is over 16.

The woman’s pelvis 

The female body is an amazing thing and do you wanna know why? Forensics can tell a woman’s age just by the size of her pelvic bone structure. And why is that? Because a woman’s pelvis narrows down as she ages. Here below is a picture of the development of the woman’s pelvis as she ages. 

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Why movie piracy will no longer be an issue worldwide

People most days watch movies they like on movie channels or stream them online and with services such as Play Store (Google) or Prime Video (Amazon) and their cheap prices, people are less likely to go out and purchase a pirate copied DVD. 

There’s still an issue on MP3 downloads but at least now all film Production Studios won’t have to worry about their profits going down nor having people stealing their movies for free as more and more people are just simply relying for online sources to watch movies and people no longer are purchasing DVDs.

Many years ago, people go to a video store and pay a monthly fee but they’d also would have to pay for the video they rented. It usually would be around £7.00 here in England to rent a video but now on Play Store and Prime Video, you can rent any movie you enjoy for just £2.49 or £3.49 which is literally half the price. Pretty good right? Well it gets better! 

DVDs are now cheaper than ever because most people watch movies online.

So I guess it’s safe to say that piracy will now soon become the thing of the past.

[ Man watching TV on couch ]

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People need to stop stereotyping the navy

As a transgender man, I’m all for LGBTQQIP2SAA rights but I think it’s wrong people dressing up as sailors and throwing parties on boats because not everyone in the navy is gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender or whatever. There are straight members of the Royal Navy (I say the Royal Navy because I am from the UK) and I don’t like how people think that sailors slept around. 

Before 90s, rumours were flying that sailors were sleeping and that was the reason why a lot of them used condoms. Only a certain amount men (and women as well) had sexual intercourse with several people but there were plenty of members of the military that stayed professional and I find it highly disrespectful that people picture members of the Royal Navy as only promiscuous and gay, I’m sure if any LGBTQQIP2SAA people were to actually visit a navy boat with actual proper military service navy members, they’ll find that there are heterosexual and even happily married sailors.

This blog post is not an attack towards LGBTQQIP2SAA people, it’s to make people realise that not every navy service person is a homosexual and by posing as a sailor and claiming all sailors are gay is actually classed as stereotyping towards the military service.

Award winning British soap opera Hollyoaks goes downhill after 15 years of success

On October 23rd in 1995, Phil Redmond who created Grange Hill & Brookside aired a new soap opera called Hollyoaks, a series focused on lives of people living in a fictional village based in Chester, Cheshire. 

From 1995 – 2010, the series remained a success and a lot of people continued to binge watch the series, especially after Channel 4 created a new channel in the early 2000s called E4 and Hollyoaks began having a sneak peak aka “first look” episode after the actual day episode aired.

Hollyoaks even had spin-off series such as Hollyoaks: Freshers, Hollyoaks: Later which also had a huge number of viewings but what exactly happend to the beloved soap that made people love Channel 4?

[ Luke & Mandy’s wedding ]

[ She’s All That (1999) by Miramax Films ]

There seemed to be a little cock-up in Lime Pictures’ storylines. If you haven’t seen the film She’s All That, maybe now is the best time. As you may know, Hollyoaks has brought back some of the old cast favourites which included Mandy Richardson played by Sarah Jayne Dunn & Luke Morgan played by Gary Lucy. 

During the wedding scene as Mandy was walking upto the aisle and Luke gazed in amazement and hearing the song “Kiss Me” by Sixpence Non the Richer, I couldn’t help but notice that it reminded me of the stairs scene from Miramax’s 1999 teen hit film She’s All That when Freddie Prinze Jr’s character Zack gazed at the beautiful transformed Laney Boggs played by Rachel Leigh Cook, the only thing that was missing was clearly the tripping over the heels part.

Did Lime Pictures Studios run out of ideas for storylines? 

[ Daisy Wood-Davies playing a terrified Kim Butterfield locked up in the school basement ]

Hollyoaks fans are now raging just as much as I am as the beloved creepy Kim has been left trapped in the basement of Hollyoaks High basement. This storyline has pretty much beaten the odds of reality as a lot of people know that no-one can survive 48hrs without consuming any water. In the Daily Star news article and if you look in the comments on Hollyoaks’ videos, fans have slammed Hollyoaks by keeping Kim locked up but again, wouldn’t Kim be dead by now? I surely would of gotten sick of seeing a poster of Rick Astley and living off baked beans and dehydration kills people or being a nurse has Kim learned about survival by drinking her own urine? (Eww!)

Phil Redmond has clearly made a mistake taken on extra writers and producers because Hollyoaks is just no longer the same anymore. 

Further more, Anna Passey who has played the well loved emotionally unstable Sienna Blake is due to be killed off in Hollyoaks as Lime Pictures Studios decide to make Cleo McQueen (played by Nadine Rose Mulkerrin) a psychopath. 

Hollyoaks are now doing what they call “flash forwards” the reverse version of flashbacks. As Myra McQueen played by Nicole Barber-Lane tries a fortune teller scheme at the Dog, clips of some of the characters’ future are shown and much to mine and some other Sienna fans’ disappointment, Sienna dies as Joel, Myra and Cleo attend the burial of Sienna Blake.

[ Joel, Cleo & Myra at Sienna’s burial ]

BUT, Lime Pictures Studios cock-up AGAIN because in the “flash forwards”, you’ll notice that everything is in black and white and you see faint orange words “3 months later”. If you play video games and have played on an Xbox or PlayStation 2, you would of heard of the video game Max Payne. In both the first 2 games and movie starring Mark Wahlberg & Mila Kunis, there are moments where the screen goes black and white and red words will appear saying something like “Two weeks later” or “3 hours later”.

Also, where’s Tony’s old friend Finn gone? Nope, not that Finn, this Finn! 

Last year it was announced that Tony’s old friend Rory “Finn” Finnigan would return to the village and cause some mischief but since the Christmas & New Year’s episodes featuring Finn, he since hasn’t made a single appearance in the village. 
Has Hollyoaks finally been out beaten by their rival soap Emmerdale? Tamara Wall who plays female mobster Grace Black admitted that Hollyoaks is more of a “underdog” series. Could she be right? After all Emmerdale seems to be winning all of the TV awards and Hollyoaks has only won a few in the past years.

Nicki Swift was wrong to bad mouth Drake Bell

Nicki Swift a YouTuber who uploads videos about celebrities and gossip uploaded a video on the 19th of January discussing child stars who apparently lost their fame.

As soon as she got to Drake Bell, I was furious. Drake Bell is NOTHING as Nicki Swift discribed. Caitlyn Jenner maybe transgender but she disagrees with same-sex/gay marriage despite her gender status so I’m not at all surprised that Drake Bell made the comments he did. Even Howard Stern was annoyed with Caitlyn Jenner because obviously Bruce was suffering being in the wrong body and deep down wanted support but as soon as Bruce became Caitlyn, they disagree with LGBT marital rights and this someone who expected to stay married Kris Kardashian after not being honest with the transitioning and went ahead and had a sex change when Kris said she’s straight. 

Drake Bell is NOT a bad person. He performed songs for many children’s TV shows, he has been supporting Thirst Project that provides clean safe water to communities suffering from poverty.

This is a young man who has helped Tots for Toys, a charity that donates toys to families that cannot afford Christmas presents for children. 

He performed at the Strawberry Bowl for Rockin A Cure as a cause for people suffering from cystitis fibrosis which is a very horrible, agonising illness. 

Drake Bell was hilarious in Drake & Josh and yeah he made of had his desputes with Josh Peck but the two celebrities have still remained good friends.

And above all that, Drake Bell is a very talented musician. He’s really good at playing the guitar and he’s an excellent singer.

Drake Bell is a very kind person so I bet if he saw that video, he’d probably would only take it with a pinch of salt and not take any legal action against Nicki Swift. 

As a Drake Bell fan, I believe it was very unfair to expose him like that as there could be many sides to his comment towards Caitlyn Jenner. Just because he made a comment about her being transgender doesn’t mean he is actually homophobic. 

[ A picture of Josh Peck & Drake Bell together after being reunited as friends ]

Drake & Josh have been long-term friends since their teenage years and appeared on the Amanda Show. Drake Bell is even friends with Miranda Cosgrove who played their onscreen sister Meghan Parker and even played the guitar for Miranda’s theme song for her TV series “iCarly” which became a success and lead to spinoff series such as “Victorious” and “Sam & Cat”. 

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Why keeping your cats indoors and training them to walk on a harness is safer

You may not know it but a lot of people today take their cats out for walks just like they do with dogs and it’s a lot safer as well as most cats often end up attacked by foxes, kidnapped by big owls, hurt by territory dogs and hit by cars.

As you’ve probably seen on many YouTube videos, cats are quick learners and can perform tricks like a dog can. I once adopted a black short-haired cat and I managed to train her to play “fetch”, the key was rewarding her for bringing me the toy back, she even thought she was a bird at times as she enjoyed sitting on my shoulder, even when she got too big.

[ a picture of a cat playing fetch ]

A lot of cats have been stolen for breading, some Chinese people even kill cats so they can cook and eat them, some people from European countries cut off their tails and make “lucky charm” keyrings. People even use cat furr for clothing. 

When I was 18 years old, my beloved Sam & Fiagro II went missing but something didn’t add up… My neighbours’ cats were missing as well – A rumour was going around that there was a cat snatcher was on the loose.

In 2016 when I was living in London, my mother contacted me that someone in Croydon was murdering cats then someone copied them and a big massacre broke out. A group of cat killers were murdering loved family pets.

Keeping a cat indoors may make life a little stressful with the smelly cat litter and scratching at the furniture but it’s better to know your cat is alive and annoying you than your cat going missing and you thinking the worse of everything. 

Not all introverts & misanthropes are bad people

So you’ve seen my Tweets, my Facebook status, my YouTube videos and you’re probably thinking “Wow, this Alan guy really is an ass”, but are you 100% correct? Have you read the minds of introverts & misanthropes? Do you know why we’re introverts & misanthropes in the first place?

Why I do despise most humans and prefer the company of animals more?

When was the last time a cat or dog turned around and called you a massive failure and belittled you? 

Since when did you watch two birds shouting and swearing at each other, threatening to hurt each other?

Did a sheep in farm hit you, told you that you were worthless?

The ugly truth of humanity

We humans are:

  1. Greedy.
  2. Selfish.
  3. Needy.
  4. Egotistical. 
  5. Narcissistic. 
  6. Self-centered. 
  7. Rude.
  8. Overpopulating. 
  9. Careless. 
  10. Stubborn.

Need I say more?

I think a lot of people don’t like me because they don’t like my opinions but just because I despise humanity doesn’t mean that I hate almost everyone. 

Misanthropes & introverts surprisingly have a certain amount of people they consider “friends”. I am the same.

If I didn’t have a soul or a heart, I wouldn’t take part in charities or try my best to help other people. Helping people and liking people are two different things.

Believe it or not, there are famous people who are misanthropes, Oscar Wilde is one to be exact. 

You all may know him as the Irish poet and the writer for the well-known novel and eventually the 2010 award winning film adaptation, the Picture of Dorian Gray. 

Oscar Wilde was rebellious and disobedient and one of his quote were:

“Other people are quite dreadful. The only possible society is oneself.” 

I couldn’t of said it quite better myself. 

Just because you exist doesn’t mean someone has to automatically like you and get along with you but I do agree that we can live together on this planet as civilised people but that is only so much disrespect I can only tolerate. If people are rude to me, I’m rude to them back, that’s just the way it is. I was brought up by a hardworking and strict family and one of the things I was told was “Manners cost nothing” and “Treat people how you would wanted to be treated” but so far in life, people have treated me badly so it’s no wonder I’m always cocky, stubborn, short-tempered and harsh towards a lot of people. 

I’ve experienced what no-one should have to go through therefore if life treats me unfair, I’m unfair back.

Why the Big Bang Theory is no longer as popular as it once was before

21 years ago in December, Chuck Lorre brought us the once well loved the Big Bang Theory but what happened? 

Penny (who we don’t even know the last name of) and Amy Farrah Fowler happened! 

Everyone enjoyed how the quirky, misanthropic introvert Sheldon Cooper tries to accept new changes in life and slowly accepts his best friend/roommate Leonard Hofstadter’s on-off girlfriend then goes on weird, funny adventures with his 2 other friends Rajesh Koothrappoli and Howard Wolowitz but then as Sheldon slowly accepted human romantic feelings for his girlfriend Amy and as Leonard got married to Penny, Sheldon Cooper the main lovable character slowly lost his odd, quirky personality and the Big Bang Theory was no longer the same.

Let’s not forget Howard getting married and becoming a father also ruined it for us fans too considering Howard’s “wannabe ladies man” was sort of his trademark. 

Yeah, Melissa Rauch couldn’t look anymore unhappier!

The fact is the Big Bang Theory was more fun when Sheldon was afraid of life, Leonard & Penny sneaking around, Raj not being to speak to women and Howard trying everything he can to sleep with women.

Whoever is now in charge with the storylines, thank you for ruining the Big Bang Theory for us!